Important Lesson Learned

Fear is easy. Love is hard. I did something hard today. I confronted my feelings and put them aside to talk to someone who had hurt them - in a setting that it's easier to just ignore the problem and be angry. Rather than let the enemy win by taking me down in hurt feelings, I did the hard thing. I talked to the person. I told them that what they said hurt. It was so scary. Shaking knees and tears still fell. And above even that, I listened as they spoke to how my words were perceived the wrong way and how I - unknowingly - contributed to the problem. This is a big victory for me. You don't understand how I NEVER have been able to do this before. Correction is the hardest thing for me to take - especially when I don't feel I am wrong. But today - today was different. I didn't once get defensive or act as though I did nothing wrong. I LISTENED and apologized genuinely. God is much bigger than my emotions and today, He showed me that if I am obedient in the little ways - here, by doing what is scary to me - He will show up and not only bring restoration to relationships but victories that the enemy can't steal. My God is bigger than what the enemy throws at me and he is throwing a lot in my path.  This is true in this situation and will be true in every situation to come. I need to remember this and be reminded of it always.